R u clean of the cringe?

just this very question could make someome laugh to the point of peeing your pants but its a serious question.

many people have crossed me in my life. Even the very people that brought me into this word. Close friends who were like my brothers and sisters and even people who claim to do no wrong. Its led me down a path of destruction but the simple act of forgiving them brought me back to the path of right doing.

to forgive someone means so many things. For starters a clear mind. Who doesnt love a clear mind? It also means mean to let go of the anger. Hating someone is just as pointless as trying to convince a rock to move. Its time consuming and gets you no where.

now dont get me wrong, it can take many days to forgive someone. And thats just fine. Now where does this cringe word come int play? If just the thought of someone make u cringe then u havent or havent fully forgiven them. Who wants to walk around cringing? I sure dont!

True love?
so i was watching teen mom last night and watching these girls made me reflect on my own life. At 16 i went through a lot of hardships but when it came to true love i thought i was on top of the world.
these girls dont understand that happily ever after doesnt always come. That true fairy tale of a night and shinning armor sweeping you of your feet and running away to pleasentville sadly only exist in movies. But being as immature as they are they are unaware of this fact. In my opinion true loe finds you..you dont find it. To go searching for true love means well...dissapointment.
so back on track, my experiene of my true love love at 16 was in fact a failure. You get blinded by reality and get consumed in the what ifs of the future. Well what if we had that cookie cutter house with the white picket? Oh and dont forget the swing set for our perfect children to play on. He wasnt perfect but neither was i. To but the blame all on him would be nieve. He said he would change but never did. He about missed the birth of his daughter due to the fact he was sitting in jail for possesion of mary jane. That was the last straw. He wasnt my true love, he was my worst enemy.
true love doesnt lie nor does it hide from reality. It stands up for what is right and fights against what is wrong.

I really dont know where to start or even how to begin. Should i be serious or should this be funny? Or both? Hmmm ill have to thnk about this.

to be continued.....